May 3 2013

Changes in me

Tonight at 9:30 I could have been out drinking with friends in the preparation to the wedding we will be attending tomorrow. Instead I was curled up on the bed watching my 14 month old son drift off to sleep. Which would I rather do? The one I was doing.

14 months in of being a parent has been a changing affair to my outlook on life, what I get to do with my spare time and how I feel about the world at large.

An impact on my personal health has also raised how I feel, I scared my self into thinking the worst last week, but all has turned out ok, not great, but ok, I can and have to live with my condition. Nothing that is life threatening but uncomfortable and a life long companion.

But Sean has brought so much joy to me, the little things he does now are always a surprise at times. He has latched on to the weirdest things as favourite toys, a spoon, my old belt, shoes, any shoes. The adventures he has with these items when he has all the other toys we have given him is amazing to behold. And just you try and take that spoon away, hell will be visited upon they who try!

I look forward to the many adventures yet to come, and the many more surprises. But also they quiet times where I can just watch as our little bundle of us just sleeps away peacefully riht beside me.